I’d always been on the viewing end of the spectrum in the never-ending world of YouTube. I’d always been the one to subscribe to others and avidly follow other people’s channels. Then one day, I said to myself, “If I like watching YouTube videos so much, why don’t I make some of my own?” It was a radical thought in my world, seeing as I was so comfortable watching other people. The idea of people watching me scared me a bit. So for help, I asked my mom for her opinion, and she said, “You cannot create a YouTube channel. Look how Justin Bieber turned out.”

So, naturally, with her incredibly moving advice, I created a channel and posted my first ever video of me singing “Dynamite” by Taio Cruz. It got, like, 9000 views, and I was shocked by the feedback. Most of it was positive, even though it was actually horrendous, but I do vividly remember my first hate comment. It said, “you sang well but you should shave your moustache.” Looking back, it was funny, but when I first read it, I was extremely offended. Regardless, I kept making videos until the paranoia of my mom finding out led me to delete them all.

Fast forward several years, and for one of my 2017 new years resolutions, I decided to explore my creative side and revive my channel, creating different content this time around. At first, when trying to figure out my niche, I said I wanted to create a really awesome travel channel. This idea was quickly shut down when I realized I was still in high school and normally only travelled to school and back. From that idea stemmed my opinion that you don’t really have to have a niche, even though most people would say you do. Although, I guess if people wanted to categorize me, I would fall under lifestyle. I mainly create vlogs of my life, but I have done a few other things as well. All I know is that I am creating content that I thoroughly enjoy making and creating a platform all by myself that broadcasts what I want to put out into the world.

My channel has grown so much since January of this year, quickly going from the 50 subscribers I still had from my singing videos to just reaching 600 in May. With a growing following, it is kind of scary. I admittedly do feel more pressure to put out really good content, but I’m slowly coming to accept that my subscribers subbed for a reason; there is no point in changing my content if they already like it.

To sum it all up, my YouTube journey has been very on-and-off, but through my channel, I have finally realized that the path I am trying to pursue is not impossible or far-fetched. Sure, film and media production might be slightly unconventional, but I am so incredibly happy about everything this path has in store for me. So if you are considering creating a YouTube channel or are scared about people judging you or are just a little wary of how to even get started, just pick up a camera and try it out. If you don’t like it, well, at least you know. But if you love the feeling of being a creator and shamelessly carrying your camera with you wherever you go, I promise you won’t regret it. There is a lot of trial and error and unexpected technological problems, but it just makes the final product that much better.