I hate change. You would think I would be talking about this in a situation like going to college, moving houses, or something equally life-changing, but no, I am talking about this in the context of the Sims.

Why is this game so fun? It’s literally just me helping characters live life in a computer, and for some reason, this is so much more enjoyable than my actually living life. Maybe it’s because I can force my sims to work out without ever leaving the comfort of my comfortable, air-conditioned house in some weird sort of sadism. Who knows?

But the best part for me is the fact that I can click a little button on an options screen that says “Turn aging off.” This means that my Sims won’t get older unless I physically make them age. I can make change when I am ready. While this is great and all, I have gotten comments on “how this isn’t a real life simulator if aging is off” and “never aging is so BORING.” Simmer (ha) down, guys. You don’t know me.

After all, how am I supposed to get along without my ambitious, restauranteur Sim and her painter of a sister? Or my vet Sim who literally built her own clinic and house from the ground up? The independent nurse who’s trying to live her best homesteading life? My two different Sim-personas who are essentially living my dream lives for me? The answer: there’s no way. I love these Sims and their families and their lives too much to ever let any of them die. Or at least, that’s what I thought before I realized that with this whole never-aging thing and the fact that I want my Sims to have children, some of my Sims are toddlers for a very long time. And let me tell you, while toddlers are cute, they also require a lot of upkeep. Just like real life! Who would have thought!

So began my quest to turn at least one Sim’s aging on. I turned Sim lifespan on to “normal” for my vet sim, and her children grew up. I am not ashamed to admit that I cried real tears on that day. Sometimes I think I care more about my Sims than a lot of other things in my real life. Some people say this is a problem. I disagree.

It’s been hard to watch my Sims grow up. But at the same time, it’s been oddly satisfying to watch the family tree screen fill up. I still despise change with a passion, but the one thing I’ve learned from this struggle is that it ends up okay. Letting things happen without my control is hard, and I still have a long way to go before I put all my Sims on a normal aging lifespan, but I’m not that against it anymore (I also can’t deal with Sim toddlers for that long either). So I guess change is fine. Maybe.

I still haven’t let any of my Sims die though. I will make that elixir of life potion for as long as I possibly can, and nobody can stop me, because this is my Sims’ universe, and I am their god.